Dear Debt Free Me | I Had a Moment

December 30, 2019

Dear Debt Free Me,

Well it’s been exactly a month since I last wrote you. Things are going well. Okay…well there was this little incident on Friday.

I had a total moment. This shit is SO hard. I have so much that I need and want to do and I can’t find the time to do it. I seem to be out of the house more and more these days and when I do get some down time, I’m trying to cram all this stuff into it. I don’t know exactly what triggered the moment but my anxiety was so high that I cried…at the bank. At that moment, everything and everyone annoyed me. I felt like I was going to burst like Michael Douglas did in that one movie he was stuck in traffic. I just wanted to be left alone. I didn’t shut down and shut out the world though…trust me, I wanted to. But instead I turned to our friends in the Debt Free Community on Instagram about how I was feeling. It was probably one of my rawest moments on social media but what I was feeling was real. Also, I probably looked as bad as I felt but that doesn’t matter. The amount of love and encouragement I received was overwhelming. More than likely I’m burnt out. I ended up taking a lot of the advice I received from the community and took some time out for myself that weekend. I haven’t scheduled a spa day or getaway yet, but I did spend some time relaxing, catching up on a few things, thinking about what I need to do in order to take care of myself moving forward, and looking for freelance work to do from home. Adjustments are coming in 2020.

-Nika

Published by Nika | Debtfreegonnabe

Nika, the voice behind Debt Free Gonnabe, is on a journey to tackle her 6-figure debt. Since starting her journey, she has become passionate about helping others get started and take control of their finances. When she's not obsessing over budgets and spreadsheets, she enjoys taking in baseball games, Zumba and indoor cycling classes, and reading.

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