December 30, 2019
Dear Debt Free Me,
Well it’s been exactly a month since I last wrote you. Things are going well. Okay…well there was this little incident on Friday.
I had a total moment. This shit is SO hard. I have so much that I need and want to do and I can’t find the time to do it. I seem to be out of the house more and more these days and when I do get some down time, I’m trying to cram all this stuff into it. I don’t know exactly what triggered the moment but my anxiety was so high that I cried…at the bank. At that moment, everything and everyone annoyed me. I felt like I was going to burst like Michael Douglas did in that one movie he was stuck in traffic. I just wanted to be left alone. I didn’t shut down and shut out the world though…trust me, I wanted to. But instead I turned to our friends in the Debt Free Community on Instagram about how I was feeling. It was probably one of my rawest moments on social media but what I was feeling was real. Also, I probably looked as bad as I felt but that doesn’t matter. The amount of love and encouragement I received was overwhelming. More than likely I’m burnt out. I ended up taking a lot of the advice I received from the community and took some time out for myself that weekend. I haven’t scheduled a spa day or getaway yet, but I did spend some time relaxing, catching up on a few things, thinking about what I need to do in order to take care of myself moving forward, and looking for freelance work to do from home. Adjustments are coming in 2020.
-Nika